Wow this was awesome. The personal experience adds up another level of hurt. I honestly like how the song doesn't only apply to romantic relationships as I have had experience with this as well. At first reaction I liked how nostalgic the song feels but after looking at the lyrics several hours later, I bursted into tears all night. I was reminded about a friend that have done the same thing to me. A few years ago as young as we were, we've had childish arguments and is one of the reasons of our weird conflicts. At that time, that person was asking me to do a dare(one of which I stubbornly declined coz I just simply don't want to and because I thought it was childish and unnecessary for me to do so), what I didn't expect was how they'd completely ignore me for almost six months. So after several days, I actually kept thinking "How did it happen like this? What could I have done that something that minor have to be this big of a deal? Why does it have to be this way?" I don't think there was no reason for them to do that however, they kept insisting that I have to do it, after relaying that message to my classmates. And I kept rejecting it until they insisted that we'd stay distant and I went with it. As an introverted person, I tried going out of my way to socialize to everyone in my class but despite of that all, I had no one to connect personally. I felt lost. I couldn't understand why when all throughout my school life, all of the friends that I made eventually moves away to a new place and leaves. Sure, it sucks to be left alone and start with new people again but I never thought it would affect me that someone would completely ignore my existence, that that person is very far to reach no matter how near you are to each other. In my previous experiences, one friend I was friends of since kindergarten until elementary have to break it to me that they were moving away after the end of the school year. Although we didn't meet each other again after more than a decade, we've separated with good terms and have contacted each other recently these years. The other one completely disappeared by the next school year at the same time as the former one till I found out they transferred school. And I was reminded yet again by that experience after a few years through that person. Even though I have to get used to it and move on, it felt really isolating since I'm not the person that socially engages. I started feeling empty later on especially when I start to realize that no matter how many people you try to befriend around you, there wasn't anyone you could reveal yourself to personally and emotionally. And at the time, I'd just assure myself and think: "They'd leave anyway, all you have is yourself and sometimes it's fine being alone." But sometimes it wasn't. And just like the bridge of Ghosting, I kept thinking that if ever that person changes their mind and talk to me just in case they get tired of ignoring me for months, I'm still here waiting.
Wow this was awesome. The personal experience adds up another level of hurt. I honestly like how the song doesn't only apply to romantic relationships as I have had experience with this as well. At first reaction I liked how nostalgic the song feels but after looking at the lyrics several hours later, I bursted into tears all night. I was reminded about a friend that have done the same thing to me. A few years ago as young as we were, we've had childish arguments and is one of the reasons of our weird conflicts. At that time, that person was asking me to do a dare(one of which I stubbornly declined coz I just simply don't want to and because I thought it was childish and unnecessary for me to do so), what I didn't expect was how they'd completely ignore me for almost six months. So after several days, I actually kept thinking "How did it happen like this? What could I have done that something that minor have to be this big of a deal? Why does it have to be this way?" I don't think there was no reason for them to do that however, they kept insisting that I have to do it, after relaying that message to my classmates. And I kept rejecting it until they insisted that we'd stay distant and I went with it. As an introverted person, I tried going out of my way to socialize to everyone in my class but despite of that all, I had no one to connect personally. I felt lost. I couldn't understand why when all throughout my school life, all of the friends that I made eventually moves away to a new place and leaves. Sure, it sucks to be left alone and start with new people again but I never thought it would affect me that someone would completely ignore my existence, that that person is very far to reach no matter how near you are to each other. In my previous experiences, one friend I was friends of since kindergarten until elementary have to break it to me that they were moving away after the end of the school year. Although we didn't meet each other again after more than a decade, we've separated with good terms and have contacted each other recently these years. The other one completely disappeared by the next school year at the same time as the former one till I found out they transferred school. And I was reminded yet again by that experience after a few years through that person. Even though I have to get used to it and move on, it felt really isolating since I'm not the person that socially engages. I started feeling empty later on especially when I start to realize that no matter how many people you try to befriend around you, there wasn't anyone you could reveal yourself to personally and emotionally. And at the time, I'd just assure myself and think: "They'd leave anyway, all you have is yourself and sometimes it's fine being alone." But sometimes it wasn't. And just like the bridge of Ghosting, I kept thinking that if ever that person changes their mind and talk to me just in case they get tired of ignoring me for months, I'm still here waiting.
This is a great read though.